morally lost

I go through phases where I am just completely

restless with what I am.

I recently dyed my hair dark to perhaps fill

the void in my subconscious self-confidence.

And well yep, didn't quite fill it.

Here are a few things that I would like

in hopes of lifting my spirits,

as I've recently diagnosed myself with

Seasonal Affective Disorder:

1) Join a Glee club

2) Legally change my name to Cocoa

3) Buy a real princess crown

4) Get the words "Nice Can" tattooed

on my bum like Landy

5) Maybe contemplate eating one of the

meatballs in the fridge

6) Squeeze out a whole tube of toothpaste

for no reason except for the satisfaction

7) Hang a sign on my front door that says

WELCOME TO MY HAUS

8) Put a full glass of water in my mouth

and then let it just run down my face while I'm

watching 30 Rock

9) Learn how to hula hoop and dance at the same time,

then learn how to hula hoop

while I am

trying to find baby's heart with a doptone,

and I'll make sure to hula at the rate of the heart beat.

Which is FAST, so I'll have to get really GOOD!

10) Help Partie and Pachoulli put on

the greatest party of all time this Friday December 4th

at 290 Mcdermot, and try to hype the importance

of getting tix soon cause the venue is super squish.